Surreal Peace

img_0482By Osiris Ordaz

There have been times where God has seemed to be completely absent in my life.  Recently, my mom and I were forced to move out of a rented space we lived in for reasons not so pleasant. My mom found herself in a hard situation because finding a place to rent within her budget in the Chicagoland area is a very difficult task; and time was against us. For me, being almost ten hours away here at NWC, this situation left me overwhelmed by my inability to help.

Last spring semester ended and I packed my things and moved into a small room with my mom (in my elder sister and her family’s house). It was a challenge. The stress of living in very close quarters with everyone weighed on all our shoulders.  Thus, the looming need to find a place pressed on. To add to this, my sister was also looking for a place because the house where they rented was in foreclosure. It seemed everything was against us.  There has been so many times that I felt God had left us to fend for ourselves. I was in a panic, full of unrest.  

Yet, after months of being stressed and wanting nothing more than for God to intervene, God met me with His peace.  I can’t recall the exact moment, but God’s peace completely flooded through me. Ironically, I almost felt guilty for not stressing. I began to see the silver linings and my heart was filled with joy. I experienced God’s peace and joy amidst the trial instead of after it was solved. It was incredible. The whole summer after May was this way, as I continued to be held in the peace of God even after coming back to school last fall.

Finally in October, after so many closed-doors and false-hopes,  my mom was able to move out of my sister’s house and into a rented place. This past Thanksgiving, I indeed had so much to be thankful for! God proved himself faithful through all these trials. God provided exactly what we needed.  Most of all, what I needed was an experience of God in the midst of uncertainty. He has shown me that I can find peace, joy, and hope in Him even in the hardships that life may bring.

Osiris, thank you for your courage to share this story!  Your story is a reminder of the Pauline truth of Romans 5:3-5: “We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.”  Indeed, in the times where the future is foggy and the present is difficult, we can find peace because we have an imperishable hope.

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