By Brad Laackmann
“When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.” Psalm 56:3
Trusting in God – it‘s easy to say, but it is incredibly difficult to put into practice. As someone who finds comfort in the certainties of life, I immediately try to solve my situation by myself whenever uncertainties arise. As I enter my senior year, the number of uncertainties may be higher than they have ever been before. Where am I going to live next year? What kind of job will I land? How will all of this affect my family and friends? Whenever others are looking for help or comfort, I will usually tell them something along the lines of, “God will take care of it.” However, how can I expect others to adopt this practice when I find it difficult to do so myself?
During the spring semester of my junior year, the Northwestern Symphonic Band went on our spring break tour to Spain. As incredible as the history and the sights were, the most memorable moment for me occurred in an auditorium in Madrid. A couple months before our tour, my grandmother passed away after a well-lived journey. The months following her passing were difficult to process, especially with the role she played in my life. During our concert in Madrid, we performed a piece by the name of “Only Light,” a piece we had played numerous times before that night. This time was different, though. In a time when I was struggling to come to terms with the grief of loss, God was displaying a message through the music. Looking back, I know that the message was, “I will take care of it.” I will never know how our concert that night impacted others-–that is part of their story. One thing I do know is that God used every part of that situation to bring honor to Him. I was not fully trusting His providence in my life, but He used each note, each person, and each moment to illuminate the blessings of looking to His plans instead of my own.
Even after that performance, I still struggle at times to see the importance of trusting God in our times of uncertainty. It is much easier to consider how I can plan out my steps instead of turning it over to God. Every time I think about this story, I am amazed by God’s constant reminders to us. Sometimes, the busyness of life blinds us to His messages. However, He is always with us, He will display His love for us in the most unexpected times, and He will provide clarity when the future is unclear. When uncertainties of the future arise, God has continually surrounded me with people and moments that display the extent of His care. In these moments, God gives us the freedom to struggle, to doubt, and to worry, but He will equip us with everything we need in order to excitedly shout His praises again.